Tuesday, November 24, 2009
11/24/2009 03:46:00 PM
SCARY GROUPIE ALERT: ADAM LAMBERT IS THE BOMB.
i can't believe i'm going insane over a gay guy.
Friday, October 30, 2009
10/30/2009 09:03:00 PM
check out the shan and rozz show episode 9 - THE BOOMZ GIRL.
you know what? ris low isn't so bad. she's got the ability to laugh at herself, which is totally cool.
(or at least, i hope she's laughing at herself. if she isn't she's a complete goner.)
but yeah, people need to stop taking things so seriously. shan and rozz are completely fantastic, i'm so sick of ris low getting so much media attention and the media making her out to be some sort of complete psycho.
JUST BECAUSE SHE HAS BI-POLAR DISORDER DOESN'T MAKE HER CRAZY OKAY.
Monday, October 19, 2009
10/19/2009 05:52:00 PM
to passerby: yes... WHO'S THIS I WANT TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE OMG WERE YOU FROM HOLY SPIRIT?????????
excuse me, i'm in the middle of preparation for As and i haven't seen a computer in weeks, so i'm in a little bit of a technological rut. which might kinda explain the blogging dry spell, and i'm kinda bummed about it.
when i get my computer fixed/get a new computer, i promise this place is going to be 100% revived.
you know, not having the time/ability to blog has kinda helped me put things into perspective. i think i'm more far more interesting in writing than in person, and i feel that blogging helps me to bring out that inner, uh, exciting person that i know is totally stashed deep, deep down.
anyway, life's been horrendous. and can you believe that we've actually bloody GRADUATED from JC. after all that hoo-ha, i'm now officially school-less once again. and uh, if i'm not careful, i might end up being school-less for, uh, ever. BUT i will not entertain that thought, NO I WON'T, because i am a smart girl and i am not going to run away from reality.
ugh, i am now THIS CLOSE to becoming a full-fledged adult. i can't believe i'm 18 now, and i can't believe i've been blogging for almost six years. okay, i guess i can't really count the last year as actual blogging, because i update once in three weeks, and even then these three weeks have extended themselves into months because i don't have any access to a computer. i'm at my sister's house right now and i'm supposed to be printing stuff from colac, but the printer is stashed up on the top shelf of the cupboard and i know if i attempt to get it down it'll probably end up giving me a concussion, so let's just forget about it for the time being.
goodness, i realise that blogging was the only reason why i used to have impeccable grammar and spelling (well, most of the time.). now that i don't have the daily practice i confuse "was" with "were" and the other day i ended up saying "bid" when i actually meant "bet". if i don't have my language capabilities i have nothing so OHMYGOD HELP ME.
i'm rambling. i think the thing i miss the most is the sound of the keys, which i find very theraputic.
NEED TO GET COMPUTER FIXED SOON. and i'll spare you from more rambling, i've got a ton of stuff to do.
22 bloody days to As. god help us all.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
9/19/2009 06:59:00 PM
i have no idea what the hell i was expecting, but it sure wasn't this.
i'm officially bitter. yes, i know. i'm eighteen years old and BITTER. like an old hag. with many cats. although i never did quite understand the whole thing with cats though. is it because of the independence and the aloofness associated with cats? does that contribute to the whole "lonely in a crowded place" thing?
but they're cats. you can't talk to them, they just stare at you. i learned this from my new next door neighbours, who have this HUUUGE cat that likes to just sit at the door and scare the living daylight out of me when i'm attempting to get to school at 7am in the morning. it's interesting, it tends to like to wander and walks into the elevator every time it opens, and on occasions you'd see it downstairs just... wandering. but it's a cat, so i guess it's got enough brains not to stand in the way of oncoming traffic or whatever.
anyway, WHATEVER. i'm talking about CATS. GOD.
i hate being emotionally indebted. I HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT.
Monday, July 13, 2009
7/13/2009 06:44:00 PM
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Wednesday, July 08, 2009
7/08/2009 11:38:00 PM
if you know me well enough, you'd know that i'm the kind of person that doesn't take shit from anybody although, strangely enough, my tolerance level is pretty high. so i suppose, comparatively, there's little shit for me to take anyway.
people say you should always avoid what's bad for you. oily foods, bad habits, all that jazz. but sometimes you just CAN'T because it's just thrown into your face on a regular basis. then what do you do? learn to cope? but that's easier said than done because there's no way you can make something that's bad for you any better. intrinsically, that's the way it is and you can't do anything.
so what are we supposed to do?
i suppose i should be thankful it's all over. but still. you go through certain experiences, wondering if they're supposed to make you stronger. it's hard to appreciate something that makes you feel as if you're about ten centimetres tall, but maybe there are benefits to reap in the future. i don't know, i don't understand some things at all. i believe that everything happens for a reason, but it's unfortunate that sometimes it takes a while before you realise what that reason is.
there have been michael jackson specials all throughout the last one and a half weeks, and today's been crazy because everything on channel 5 got pre-empted by the memorial service. this whole thing's just been a little surreal, but i guess i'm getting over it.
i was never a particularly big MJ fan, i've always been more of an "appreciate from afar" kind of person. but i have to admit that there has never been anybody like michael jackson, and i don't think there'll ever be anyone like him ever again. his music transcends generations, you don't even think of his music as 80s music; it's just music.
our generation grew up knowing michael jackson, but never really being exposed to his greatness. so i guess it's been a great learning experience these last two weeks or so, seeing him at his prime.
RIP, MJ.
Monday, June 29, 2009
6/29/2009 10:41:00 PM
GOD GRETCH, start listening to your own advice. you'd benefit from it.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
6/24/2009 01:41:00 PM
half the time i'm so tempted to just let it all out, but then i remember that the world is watching, and i just can't.
i had a moment though, last night. it felt so real, but then i realised that it was simply due to a change in scenery.
it's weird what these things can do to one's mentality.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
6/17/2009 01:57:00 PM
i think i take the whole angsty teenager thing to a whole new level.
stop hating the world, you moron. maybe only then you'll see that life is more than dark colours and sadism. bad habits aren't what life is all about, and you need to realise that before you start drowning in your own darkness.
yeah right, i've already started drowning. i'm six feet from the edge. but then again, maybe six feet ain't so far down eh?
Saturday, June 06, 2009
6/06/2009 09:29:00 AM
something is seriously, SERIOUSLY WRONG.
i think i had better find out what the hell it is (and why!) before anything else happens again.
Friday, May 29, 2009
5/29/2009 10:35:00 PM
after all those years of rejecting social norms, i think it's about time i started to embrace some of them.
i think at the end of the day, i'm beginning to realise that all those years of rejecting what people perceive as acceptable has resulted in a more detrimental outcome as opposed to a favourable one. i'm beginning to see what the future holds and trust me, it ain't pretty. the weird thing about it is that i've had so many head-smacking enlightenments, and yet it's taken so long for me to realise what's wrong.
am i rejecting individuality? yes, to a certain extent, if it goes against what's best. i never thought i'd ever say this, but maybe sometimes conforming to mass beliefs is indeed what's best in the long run. i'm not trading in my perceptions for a herd mentality, i'm simply revisiting the situation and hence have realised that maybe the herd mentality exists for a good reason.
am i a morbid individual? most definitely, but maybe i don't need to express it so outrightly, because i've had this double standard for such a long time that it's a good thing i'm doing this re-examination of the self.
i think it's going to take some time, but i'm getting there. i need to stop blaming everyone and everything apart from myself and re-examine the situation from a different perspective. it's been such a crazy past few years, with my mind travelling to places that i'm sure cannot be deemed healthy, and i'm not going to make false claims and say that it's never going back, but i guess i need to work at being the best i can possibly be.
is this idealism? maybe, but it's idealism for the greater good, both for myself and those around me. i need to stop longing and start doing, because passiveness never got anyone anywhere. i need to start being proactive, no matter how difficult it is, and start being completely shameless once again.
the plan may not be perfect, but at least it's a start.
Friday, May 22, 2009
5/22/2009 09:03:00 PM
yeah, i know i said that it didn't matter to me, but i'm kinda sad that adam didn't win. maybe because we all expected him to?
kris allen and his monkey faces can go back to conway because he beat out adam for the title. and OMG, i swear they made that stupid idol trophy just to punish him for winning because that thing is HIDEOUS.
ah, i'll get over it. poor adam.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
5/14/2009 07:45:00 PM
OH MY GOD.
kris and adam finals WHOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean, both danny and kris are incredibly boring, but at least kris is a relevant kind of boring. i actually preferred his performance of apologize to heartless last night, but hey, i'm the adam lambert fan so i'm all for theatrics as opposed to understated talent. and as much as i absolutely HATE apologize, i thought kris did a good job, and thank god he dropped the horrendous falsetto in the chorus after a couple of shots at it.
and well, i hate heartless more than apologize. although i have to say i DO like love lockdown, which is kinda strange because i'm not even a kanye fan and that song has even more autotune and synthesizers than heartless does.
and every week my stomach goes into convulsions come thursday because i swear, i have not been this crazy over any idol contestant EVER. the closest i ever got to this was clay aiken back in season 2, which i think i've mentioned, and even then jessica and esti were much bigger fans than i was. plus that was clay aiken's pre-spamalot days and my pre-musical theatre adoration days, so i think i probably wasn't even half as crazy as i am right now. and if clay were to compete against adam, i'd pick adam hands down because he is FRIGGIN AWESOME and can outshriek and banshee. WHOOHOO.
yes, i like the shrieking. the only week i didn't like it was when he did if i can't have you from saturday night fever, because by stripping the song down to a ballad form he was pretty much removing all the theatrics of the disco era, and to throw in the scream was completely unnecessary. i liked his first performance more than his second one last night, because one by u2 is an ABSOLUTE SHOWSTOPPER. and i'm a much bigger fan of aerosmith stuff from later on in their career. (by the way, jaded? one of the BEST SONGS EVERRRRR.)
you know what? i don't even care if adam wins because regarless, he's going to get signed and will probably be the first to release an album. i think i'll probably get it, because even though yue qun says she's going to get it, i don't really trust her because she's the girl who's never bought a CD in her life. (and to think i'm FRIENDS with this girl!) i don't even care if it sucks, i'll probably get it because it's adam. although i can assure you that i won't be getting a danny gokey album anytime soon, i'm not a big fan of christian music. but if kris does that jason mraz thing that he seems to be doing, i might consider.
oh god, the last album i bought was kelly clarkson. but i guess it's partly because there hasn't been anything worth getting recently. green day comes out today, but i'm not that big a fan.
i'm almost hoping that adam comes out in drag next week, but i doubt it. you know, i almost feel sorry for the gay underground scene because now that adam's on idol he won't be doing anymore of those underground shows, and i swear ring of fire doesn't even come close to how totally WRONG those performances are. him dancing to womanizer? totally PRICELESS. he shakes his ass better than 95% of the world's female population. plus his originals on youtube have a sort of alternapop/glam rock feel to them, and i am a pretty big fan of that. i hope he goes all 80s on us because I LOVE THE 80s! almost as much as i love wicked, almost. but if his performances are anything to go by, it seems promising.
i think i need to stop going on and on about idol and adam, it's really not healthy. maybe i should post something on twitter, just to keep it going.
i'm way too trashy for my own good. katy perry, lady gaga, and now adam lambert? gee gretch, thank goodness you're a girl.
Monday, May 11, 2009
5/11/2009 11:11:00 AM
HELLO YOU.
i missed my blog's birthday this year for the first time, but i swear it was for a completely legitimate reason.
anyway, happy belated, blog. did you know you're older than the gosselin sextuplets?
yeah, i need to stop talking to my blog as if it's a living being. this is seriously not healthy.
by the way, i've discovered a few NEW ADDICTIONS. i've been hooked on cooking academy and wedding dash, and i'm sure i'm going to get hooked on other things sooner or later (but diner dash is so last year.). PLUS i've gotten completely addicted to jon and kate plus 8. yes, i know i've always liked it and i've been watching it for about a year and a half now, but now that the kids are four (on the show, in real life they're approaching five. oh my god, they're FIVE.) they're actually a lot more entertaining than they were before when they were about two.
yes, i like to watch kids on TV. handling them on the other hand? might be a different story.
if we could just edit real life wouldn't it make everything just perfect? (wait, that was a dumb question.)
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
4/22/2009 12:26:00 PM
tsk gretch, bitchy as always.
one day karma is going to come back and hit your square between the eyes before biting you on the ass. just you wait.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
4/12/2009 09:14:00 PM
oh my god gretch you pathetic loser stop fretting over something so completely irrelevant.
suck it up, embrace it and go do something with your life dammit.
and yes, once again the broken record thing applies.
4/12/2009 03:04:00 PM
oh my god gretch, stop obsessing. you sound like a broken record.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
4/11/2009 08:08:00 PM
well, incessant blogging only means one thing.
i'm not going to say what it is here, because the people who need to know what that means already know.
so, is it a good thing, or is it a bad thing? hmmm, i don't know, why don't you try to find out for yourself.
you know what my problem is with the world today? the fact that privacy is pretty much non-existent, and that people are okay with it. the fact that people update a ton of personal details for the world to see, plaster their own faces all over facebook/livejournal/blogger/whatever, and that you have outlets which condone all that.
i hate the fact that people have become more voyeuristic as time passes. i'm pretty sure it's because technology has made it so much easier, and as people become more and more drawn into the whole thing, technology is there to exacerbate it.
admit it, we're all voyeurs and narcissists, with one fueling the other, depending on which you prefer.
to take something out of context and apply it to this situation, to say that big brother is watching might just be an understatement. amazing how something that seemed so threatening and terrifying seventy years ago has now become something we accept blindly, and without question. sure, occasionally we receive that wake up call which leads us to question authorities and perhaps even our own peers, but sooner or later we simply go back to accepting all that is thrust in our faces.
defending yourself in the light of the issue isn't even valid anymore. one thing leads to another, and before you know it, you're going beyond your initial intention, and infringing on the privacy of others in the process. it's human nature: we're greedy, we're curious, we're determined to play God, and unfortunately, we're provided with endless mediums in order to fuel our desires.
to see something from your perspective is perfectly fine. but in order to fully comprehend the situation, one has to examine it from both sides, and as much as we all hate to admit it, doing so sometimes ends up proving to us that what initally thought was acceptable might not exactly be the best way to deal.
i know the more i write, the more off tangent i'm getting, but i'm just... really annoyed. not necessarily because it's just something i feel passionately about, but it all comes down to an issue of human rights. we're all entitled to our own opinions, our own lives and our own right to privacy. i personally couldn't care less, because it's not as if i provide enough interesting information anyway, but if there are people out there who attempt to conceal their thoughts and feelings, nobody has the right to infringe upon it.
for the greater good? bullshit.
4/11/2009 11:58:00 AM
You Are MySpace
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You are young ... or at least you feel like you are. You are drawn to musicians and artists.
You are proud of who you are. Your quirks are an asset, and you flaunt them!
You are attracted to shiny things, and you aren't afraid of a little bling.
You're stubborn enough to stick to what your like, even if falls out of fashion.
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You Are "delete"
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Some people might try to say you're standoffish and aloof.
You prefer to think of yourself as a person of few words.
You like to live simply, speak simply, and act simply. It's all about editing.
No wonder you're the first person your friends call when they need a mess cleaned up!
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Your Inner Blood Type is Type B
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You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day.
Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable.
And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success.
You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible.
You are most compatible with: B and AB
Famous Type B: Leonardo Di Caprio
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You Are Paper
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Crafty and creative, you are able to adapt freely to almost any situation.
People tend to underestimate you, unless they've truly seen what you are capable of.
Deep down, you're always scheming and thinking up new plans. Your mind is constantly active.
You are quite capable of anything you dream of. You can always figure out a way to get what you want.
You can wrap a rock person up in your sheet of trickery.
A scissor person can sneak up and cut you to pieces.
When you fight: No one can anticipate your next move
If someone makes you mad: You'll attack them mercilessly when they're unprepared
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You Think Creatively
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Your brain works best when you let your intuition be your guide.
You like to imagine, speculate, and fantasize. You have fun playing with ideas.
You are interested in theories. You enjoy studying and developing them.
You are drawn toward art, philosophy, and even math. Almost every subject is interesting to you.
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You Are 61% Indie
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You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal.
You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure!
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You Are a Discount Shopper
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You love to get things as cheaply as possible. You live for sales.
It's partially because you like to save money, but it's also because you like the thrill of finding a fabulous deal.
Of all the types, you tend to shop frequently but rarely by. You keep an eye on prices.
Brand names are not that important to you. You know how to have style without collecting designer tags.
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You Are 78% Non Conformist
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You are a pretty serious non conformist. You live a life hardly anyone understands.
And while some may call you a freak, you're happy with who you are.
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Your Taste in Music Says You're Wild
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Your musical tastes are intense and rebellious.
You are intelligent... but in a very unconventional way.
You are curious about the world. You love doing something new.
In fact, you enjoy taking risks and doing things most people would shy away from.
You are very physical. It's likely that you're athletic, but not into team sports.
You have the soul of an artist. Beauty and harmony are important to you.
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You Are Punk Music
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You've thought long and hard about what mainstream society has to offer...
And you've pretty much decided that most normal things aren't for you.
You're creative, expressive, and likely to do things yourself.
You are a rebel and a fighter. You'll defend your point of view to anyone.
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Your Quirk Factor: 83%
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You're beyond quirky... You're downright bizarre.
You've lost touch with social norms and what's appropriate. And you're loving every minute of it!
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Friday, April 10, 2009
4/10/2009 08:36:00 PM
you want drama? i can give you drama.
but i'm not going to, because it's useless to stoop down to that level. all it provides is extremely minimal entertainment, and it isn't even for me.
i might just dish out the occasional jab, simply because i can. but i won't right now.
anyway, i have a sudden fascination with hair. as of right now, i'm watching last year's VMAs on MTV, and i like christina aguilera's during her performance (she looks a ton better than lady gaga, simply because lady gaga's looks bloody fake. it's probably a wig.), and not so much that lead singer from tokio hotel, who looks like he had a flat iron explosion on his head.
it's amazing the kind of stuff you can do with hair actually, which is why i love ANTM's makeover episodes. okay, i'm sadistic and part of me watches it for the drama (i love to see girls cry over HAIR, simply because it's so god damn trivial.), but it's cool how much hair makes such a difference.
oooh, josh peck is now officially the hotter one in drake and josh. poor drake.
i think i should do something radical with my hair, like chop it all off. i do miss long hair sometimes, but other times i'm just tempted to do something different. change it up. surprise people.
but the shock factor for the sake of exactly that? might not be the best thing. i thrive on that, but i'll be the first to admit it's sometimes not the best decision to make.
ack, our generation is too narcissistic for our own good.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
4/08/2009 09:19:00 PM
"i despise that because it doesn't rhyme at all."
"i'm afraid i don't know the
technical term for it..."
"
Nolite te bastardes carborundorum"
"...five little stone lozenges..."
"when you think tim mcgraw, i hope you think of me."
"i am vertical: i would rather be horizontal."
"i know that we're different, but we were one cell in the sea in the beginning."
yeah, sometimes i don't understand myself either.
4/08/2009 08:23:00 PM
i'll try harder, i promise.
sometimes i think about what the issue is here, and i think i'm beginning to understand. the problem now is trying to convey this to other people around me, because i can't simply expect everyone else to understand.
hey, if you want help you gotta ask for it, right? you can't just expect some guardian angel to fall right into your lap because, guess what? this is real life, and real life is never what we wish it to be.
idealism? time to roll out the punches and deal with it.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
3/19/2009 09:51:00 PM
i've recently signed up for twitter (i have no idea WHY, because it's only going to end up the next facebook, and you know how much i like being, well, uncontactable and obscure. but at least i'll have the pride in proclaiming that i signed up well before anyone else did.), so i don't know if this place will get so many one liners anymore. twitter's updates are limited at something like 160 words per entry, which is good for the occasional someone intelligent retort (haha, i wish.) that i sometimes like to dish out. so hey, it's a good thing i now have an outlet, because this means that random people won't have deal with my incessant ramblings.
anyway, that's not the point. i swear, i shouldn't even be promoting twitter if i like it the way it is, but then again my lack of updates has led to this place becoming a little bit stale, which i suppose is a good thing.
the point is, OMG IS ADAM LAMBERT FANTASTIC OR WHAT????? the eyes are totally fantastic (VFTW has a name for it that i'm not putting up here because i've got a reputation to maintain, but that name is absolute GENIUS.), i love the hair (except the somewhat holographic blue/turquoise thing he has going on. that's just... uh.), the whole look is just awesome.
i suppose the main reason why i like adam is because he was in wicked, and anyone who knows me knows that wicked is my favourite musical of all time and i will eat up anything remotely related to it (proof being i spent about a hundred and fifty pounds in merchandise when i went to see the musical.). i don't care if he was a swing or a member in the ensemble and only an understudy, because he's fantastic. and now he's got BROADWAY.COM doing recaps for him and promoting him.
but he's definitely more than wicked. much much MUCH more.
i think i'm going a little insane with the whole thing, most people don't even watch american idol anymore. i don't think i like it as much as i did back when we were all in p6 and jess and esti formed the "we heart clay aiken" fan club, but still enough to watch it every week. and since i don't have school this week, i caught the performance show something like four and a half times, which really is a bit of a joke, but whatever. i like idol and i'll admit it to anyone who asks.
as you can tell, i've been reading VFTW a lot, and one thing i don't understand is why they all hate danny. i don't think he's the best person in the competition and i wouldn't call myself a fan, because for some reason a lot of people seem to like him and it seems like at this point in time, he's adam's biggest competition, which therefore equals to NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i suppose to a certain extent it's funny, and i respect whatever they want to say, but i just don't get it.
at the end of the day, to hell with idol speculation. i'm not going to be a conspiracy theorist, even though i do enjoy the occasional visit to VFTW. i'm just going to enjoy idol because i like the show, and whether or not everything that goes on behind the scenes is ugly, i really don't give a rat's ass.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
3/12/2009 12:30:00 PM
i hate to admit it, but i care.
i care A LOT.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
3/08/2009 05:05:00 PM
repercussions.
i think that's my biggest fear of all, even beyond lizards and enclosed spaces.
but that's probably a good thing, because if it weren't for that, i'd have done things that would've been catastrophic for all.
okay, maybe not all. just me. but then again, if all that we believe in turns out to be false, then... what repercussions?
but i suppose to a certain extent, i'm afraid to find out.
in the midst of common tests preparations, i've been visiting VFTW to get some laughs. and maybe i'm extremely disturbed, but the sheer queen-ness of adam lambert actually makes me love him even more. he's fabulous!
okay, i do like some of the more normal contestants too. but then again. i'm sure calling megan corkrey normal might not meet most people's standards either.
welcome to the world of lack of comprehension. it's back to the accelerator effect for me.
Friday, March 06, 2009
3/06/2009 11:24:00 PM
recent developments have really got me thinking about, well, everything.
i'm beginning to wonder if what i thought was true in the past might not be true at all. in fact, maybe it's about time we threw out all that used to make sense in the past, the strong belief system that used to root us, and trade it for something completely different.
i'm pretty sure that makes sense to no one else but me, but it's not as if it matters.
Friday, February 27, 2009
2/27/2009 12:05:00 AM
i was thinking maybe, but what's the point. it's not as if it's going to make a difference.
what's wholly real and what's wholly imaginary? where's the distinction? because i swear, i have no freakin' idea. it all looks real to me. i know if it's imaginary there's an i present in the equation, but i still don't get why it's not real. does the presence of an i really make the whole thing imaginary? but there's a real part to it too, is there not?
i guess it is exactly what it is: COMPLEX.
if someone could educate me i'd be eternally grateful, but i doubt most people are qualified anyway.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
2/26/2009 11:39:00 PM
i. hate. math.
have i mentioned how much this stupid project annoys me? because it really does. i mean, it's not as if anyone cares about whether differential equations are going to help you with epidemic control or whatnot.
and screw you, office 2000, for not being able to read those bloody symbols.
i don't give a shit about math, neither do i give a shit about science. i'm doing it now because i don't have a god damn choice, but at the first opportunity i get, i'm running as far away as i can from this god foresaken branch of learning and thrusting myself fully into the art of media communications.
why someone would actually want to do a project on differential equations is beyond me. i swear, the math department hates all of us and wants to see us cry, because as of now i'm THIS CLOSE to rippig my hair out and screaming.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
2/15/2009 08:33:00 PM
oh, just when we all thought that things couldn't get any worse, it just did.
i swear, the new timetable is officially a pain if the effing behind. because now, not only do we no longer have 1pm days every odd thursdays and 2pm days every even thursdays, the only days i end even remotely early i have FRIGGIN CCA.
not that i don't love the drama society or whatever, but WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!
and you know what's the most ridiculous part of this whole thing? every odd friday i finish school at 12.
12-FRIGGIN-PM.
but noooooooo, i can't go home because i have stupid CCA which means that i'll be stuck in school until 6pm.
well, and the fact that the rule states that you can't leave the school grounds until 1pm, but that's besides the point.
so much for a better timetable. and the thing i was crossing my fingers and hoping for? yeah, totally DID NOT HAPPEN.
thanks, person who generates the timetable. thanks a lot.
(although the "person" is probably some microsoft excel programme, but whatever. we should all blame our problems on technology and the amount of turmoil it brings to human life.)
by the way, you know what? i think all the excessive princess diaries reading has done me some good. i don't think i've been so in touch with my emotions in a REALLY long time. and my emotions right now tell me that i really want to take those candles that my dad bought from ikea (which you really could be fooled into thinking they're apples, until you try to bite into one) and hurl them across the room.
or better, hurl it at...
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Friday, February 13, 2009
2/13/2009 09:30:00 PM
as cynical as i am, i don't think that valentine's day is inherently a bad thing.
i'm not going to be one of those anti-establishment individuals who spite the idea of valentine's day because they're just bitter, because i like the idea. the whole expressing your love and care for others, i think it's part of human nature, and it's nice to have an entire day dedicated to that.
the problem i have with the whole thing is the consumerism of it all. i think in today's context, it's second only to christmas, and once that happens, the whole meaning of it is lost.
maybe i'm just weird, or maybe i'm just subconsciously more against the idea than i thought, but whatever.
happy valentine's day (in advance) everyone.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
2/10/2009 09:12:00 PM
You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
You know I haven't seen you around, before
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen
You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be out of here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And your Momma's waiting up and you think he's the one
And you're dancing round your room when the night ends
When the night ends
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tell you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin round but
In your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen
When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine
And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind
And we both cried
Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors- fifteen; taylor swift
by the way, i think duffy was robbed of best new artist.
ROBBED.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
2/05/2009 10:04:00 PM
i hate how it's so easy to misunderstand someone, to interpret something in a way that is the furthest thing away from its intended meaning.
and therefore, i've learnt to keep words to a minimum. at least, i've leart to keep opinions and insights to a minimum. which leaves room for lots of trivia.
did you know you can't commit suicide by holding your breath? go figure.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
2/03/2009 09:31:00 PM
i'm so pathetic because i spent the last three hours sitting in front of my computer screen, finishing the last princess diaries book.
there's two days (okay fine, SIX HOURS) of my life i'll never get back.
but you know what? this is actually the happiest i've been in a long time. i know it's retarded to admit that some stupid chicklit book meant for the 9-14 demographic made me happy, but it's true.
i've practically grown up with the series, i've read every single book since the first one was released in... oh my god, 2000. that's nine years. NINE YEARS. and i swear, the series is the epitome of everything i despise: it's flighty, predictable and so far off from the hardcore stuff i'm usually into. but for some reason it gives me the warm fuzzy feeling inside that i haven't felt in a long, long time.
i know, i'm such a loser, but at least i'm a happy loser.
i guess, at the end of the day, there is a human being under all those layers of, well, even i don't even know. all the sediments that piled up over years of resistance and adherance to expectatations of others, maybe they've become integrated into my personality after so long, but i think it's nice to know that somewhere, inside all that, there's still a heart.
haha, it's amazing how mia thermopolis makes me contemplate the person i am and the person i want to be. it's so strange, i don't think chicklit is supposed to make you do that. much less chicklit found in the children's section in most bookstores.
and you know what? i don't think i've used "haha" in a blog post in a really, REALLY long time.
you guys really should take advantage of this happy, warm and fuzzy gretch. because i'm sure that by this time tomorrow she'd be gone.
or maybe it won't even take that long. i've got an AQ to do, maths holiday homework (which ms lee threatened that if we didn't get done, she'd give us all DISCIPLINE FORMS that our parents had to sign. ooooh we're all shaking in our pants just thinking about it.) and of course that dreaded SPA thing to study for. plus i'm sure i've forgetten about other stuff we have to do, but who cares.
plus i've got to have schizophrenia for three hours tomorrow.
so i guess i better snap out of this somewhat and get back to work, although, before that...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah, better take advantage of the situation. who knows when the next time will be?
